Posted by allisonross on November 4, 2005, at 12:45:39
In reply to Re: Everything's Changed » Tamar, posted by Susan47 on November 3, 2005, at 20:18:55
> Hey, Tamar and Susan, I love what you write!
I don't think so, dearie. Those days are far behind me, I'm not young enough anymore, that's the truth.
Young enough for WHAT?! Age is irrelevant, unless you are a tree or a cheese, LOL!!
But what I do like about this age,
What is that? I am 59, people guess my age at 40.....genes an an attitutde is my secret! i tend to live in the moment (people call me "fairy-child")
is my feeling that now I can take my time, you know, and really appreciate what I have as I'm losing it .. can't you believe the irony in that? Life is just full of them.
Yes, life is full if ironies. Like I never thought I would be alone at this age (divorced after 31 years of abuse).
I hate that, that's what makes nightmares come. Ironies. But it's true, you know. They torture us with the sanity of it all. So now in any case, I'm at the age where I can attract guys for FUN and not feel bad about it, because there're no more ulterior motives for making myself happy. I just.. have that right.
We always did!
> Now if only I could get the message through to the right people, everything'd be cool. But do you know another Irony, Tamar? Here's another one. There are no longer the men out there who I find interesting enough to give the time of day.
> Which blows me away. Because I always thought I was stupid, I hid my intelligence even from me. Mostly from me. Even now I'm not sure I have any at all. I'm just a nutcase, a fruitcake, an idiot box.you shouldn't call my (new) friend names. you are abusing yourself. I decided a looooong time ago, to NEVER put myself down, no matter how much I wanted to.
That is self-abuse. i trained myself to do that; takes practice but SHOULD be done.
But I have to like that otherwise what was the point in living? So anyway, in any case, it's better to think I'm smart than I'm dumb. Even just thinking that way, seems smart.
Its all about how we see ourselves;
CHOOSING to think you are smart, is SMART, see?
NEVER put yourself down; it works on your subconscious, gets in there and destroys any self-esteem you might have. that
So okay. Then how many guys, how many men do you know, personally, who are attractive enough and smart enough all in one package, to get your attention? Well obviously, there aren't enough of them.
I know 2. One is president of a University (incredibly intellectual, sensitive, and everything a woman would want. The other one? My t (but then, you know about that).
Period. So the irony is that sometimes it's best just not to feel sexy, it's best and so many women my age do this, they squash it down and put it away before it's time.
Not me. I have always been "out there" I couldn't "squash" it down, if I wanted to. I have men I don't know comin on to me (brag, brag), etc., but it is what you project, and I ooze sex (LOL< LOL) and personality!
And to boot---I am unbelievably MODEST, LOL
Example: The tv guy came to my house, an hour later he gave me his personal phone #....to call him "anytime for anything" I was amused, and later had dinner with him. He said i was what he "wanted and needed", and I would change his life, etc., etc......he thought of me all the time, and wanted to call me at 2 a.m.
This, after knowing me for an hour! I am constantly amazed, and it happens all the time!
Others hang on to too little for too long, and others have Oomph till the final flame. I really would love to be in the last category.
you can be. Project, project, project
I even know people in that category. Always had it, never lost it.
> It's possible.Sure it is! You can have the kind of persona, personality in which people are drawn to you.
Hugs, Ms. Behavin!
I don't kow.
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