Posted by corafree on October 25, 2005, at 21:23:50
In reply to Re: I'm Stupid Too » corafree, posted by AdaGrace on October 25, 2005, at 8:16:49
Adagrace:
No, it's perfectly cool .. and you are 'right on' about how the word 'stupid' hurts me, because of my emotionality (flob word) .. and just the screwed up way we can feel having traveled and still traveling the horrible road of anxiety/depression/s**t.
I may have called someones' behavior 'stupid' in my life, but cannot recall ever calling a person stupid.
It was said to me once before, when I was 20something. I still haven't forgotten how that hurt.
This significant-other no longer has my address.
I will tell him if he calls I will get call rejection, and if he calls my cell, my daughter (who pays for my cell) will get a restraining order.
He's gone.
Yes, I love too much. I love? .. loved?? .. it hurts to say goodbye to someone we thought we saw something in. I've learned there are silver-tongued romancers who don't have a good soul! See, I'm always giving people the benefit of the doubt .. ya' know .. there must be some reason they are behaving badly. But it's time I grow up and learn that some people are just plain bad.
This man's life hurt mine. I know I have to own that. It came right back around and slammed him in the face though.
You are prob' right about his insecurity and need to take it out on someone that it would hurt. And yep, I now hurt pretty easily. Before I had mental health difficulties, seems there was nothing I could not handle with ease. I'm an Aries, Leo rising, and have a lot of other fire in me. He is water, .. I'm moving on w/o him, as I moved forward w/o my ex-husband (physically abusive) .. earth. Yep I give thought to astrology, it drew me towards two elements which I need to add to more life in more healthy ways.
Actually I'm pretty much on fire, .. I have 6 points fire, 3 air, 3 water, and only 1 earth.
So I tend to talk about myself too much, a bit self-centered. Sorry.
Thanks again, all of you, bestwishes cf
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