Posted by Mountain Man on July 19, 2005, at 10:21:22
In reply to Re: New to forum...need it in a BAD way » Mountain Man, posted by crazy teresa on July 18, 2005, at 17:10:30
CT,
I read your reply, and it hit me pretty hard. I think you are on to what I am starting to realize.Honestly, I think I was "making up" reasons to leave my first marriage. The "new" found interest was a romantic high. She is a beautiful girl, and was something different. Believe me when I tell you that it is hard for me to admit I made a mistake.
Now that I've made that mistake, I am feeling a surge of emotion. On the surface, it seems to be mainly heartache over the failed relationship with the latest (and soon to be ex) wife. In reality, my guilt over leaving my last marriage and not putting my kids first is what is wearing on me.
I am starting therapy this coming Thursday. There are times when I feel so hopeless, and despirate...afraid of being alone. Other times, I feel calm and at piece with myself (although those times are way outnumbered by the feelings of anxiety and depression.
Why can't I realize that I have issues to work on, rather than trying to win back the love of my latest relationship????!!!
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