Posted by gardenergirl on May 14, 2005, at 15:13:59
In reply to GG - How are you doing? Things any better? (nm), posted by TamaraJ on May 13, 2005, at 9:14:33
Dang it....I had a whole post here, and there is this stupid key on the keyboard that I hit at times by accident that results in me losing all of what I have typed. It's that stupid Microsoft key that pulls up the right click mouse menu. And then whatever I type next before I realize it winds up "cutting" the text.
It was a good post.
Okay, shorter version. We are talking more honestly and things are better. He's agreed to do either individual or couples counseling. My preference is for him to do individual since going twice a week to therapy seems like a lot for me now. Adding another session for a new type of therapy would be hard. And I really really need to do my dissertation. But I feel selfish for thinking this. Or just like a baby who can't handle intense therapy. grrrr. I know I am entitled to my own needs. (Okay, none of this was in the lost post. Hmmm)
At any rate, he shared some things that helped me to understand why I was feeling so bad about the marriage. And we are being more affectionate and spending more time just being together. It helps, of course, that my depression is waning, too.
But when I came home one day and told him I had clinical depression, for some reason, that really freaked him out, and he got very pessimistic that I would ever get better. It wasn't news to me. I've had recurrent clinical depression it feels like all my life. This is just another episode. But I guess I have not labelled it like that before. My T had labelled it that day, and when I told my hubby, I guess it sounded worse or different.
At any rate, things are looking up. Now...if only I could disable that stupid Microsoft key...I think I tend to hit it when I am trying to hit shift with my right pinky.
Thanks for asking,
gg
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