Posted by alesta on May 12, 2005, at 22:19:26
In reply to Re: cybersex revisited » alesta, posted by Chairman_MAO on May 12, 2005, at 21:47:23
> This makes me think of my days up at Syracuse University (18-22 yr old). I was so goddamn lonely (and I am a hopeless romantic at heart), and the social phobia coupled with dysthymia (I'm scared to go try to meet girls ... so why bother; real winner of a combo there) had me isolating myself in my room.
yeah, i guess i am lonely. i live with my mom right now (looooong story) so i can't really date or go out or anything, unless she chaperones, lol. i plan to have my own apartment ASAP. anyway, i just got out of, well, 2 relationships (second was very short), actually, so i feel this void..more from the second than the first..i am totally over the first. anyway, i guess it's that void that i'm trying to fill. i guess what i really need to do is get over that person totally? i don't know what i'm feelin right now or why..it just manifests as horniness lol. i was f-i-n-e fine being on my own before this person. i just want to go back to the way i was. now. sorry..hope this isn't more info than you were willing to digest..if so, my sincere apologies chairman..:)
<The only girls, as I said before, that seemed to want to have anything to do with me were the ones who were dating as*holes who needed a decent guy's shoulder to cry on when things weren't going according to their liking. I mean, once I showed up at this girl's place who I was madly in love with after Thankgiving break in these leather pants I just got, a grey alpaca v-neck sweater that used to be my dad's, and blue-black hair. She visibly like melted right there (though I couldn't see it then because I had approximately no self esteem), but still refused to go out with me or even do anything except make out with me because of this other emotionally abusive guy she was on the outs with.
sorry to hear that...just b/c a relationship is over doesn't mean it's *over*, if you know what i mean..you can't expect a girl in that situation to be able to just feel deep feelings for you..it don't work that way.:) so maybe you won't take it so personally, knowing that...i hope....:)
<I had such trouble handling my emotions back then; I used to agonize for literally hours if she didn't call me when she said she would. Man, I wish I were well then, I would've had so much fun.
i know what you mean..tainted love is agony!!
> And to top it off, the girl I'm dating now--who I met at Rutgers, in NJ--was ATTENDING Syracuse when I was there, and she was lonely too!
that IS weird!:)
<Man, I had no idea my life was so well suited to daytime TV until I started typing this message, haha.
yeah, lol...i think i know the feeling. somehow typing all this stuff out makes you realize that you had a h$ll of a lot more drama in your life than you first realized.
thanks for letting me vent. i'm doing a lot of that lately, lol.:)
amy:)
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