Posted by alesta on May 11, 2005, at 22:48:19
In reply to Re: well you STARTED it, posted by Susan47 on May 11, 2005, at 20:06:56
hey girl :) man i am pretty freaking tired tonite..i need to catch up on some sleep *majorly*..so i hope this post is at least intelligible on some level..and i'll try my best not to doze off here..:)
> Drawing is lovely, for me. I love it. But I never do it.
< Taken a couple of drawing classes, I'd love to do it all the time. But something always stops me. Fear. Huge. Huge fear.
why don't you just draw for fun, if you really enjoy it...not put any pressure on yourself..you don't have to show it to nobody.:)
< Same with writing. I want to write stuff, even a diary, but I can't. I read it later and it all sounds stupid. It takes a few years of distance before I can read anything with any understanding about what was happening for me. I wish now that I'd kept the diary I started when I was 14.. and the scrapbook I had, I loved making this scrapbook. It's all gone, thrown away in a fit of young adulthood. You know, that I-can't-believe-that-was-me ...? It's never a good experience for me when I read what I wrote too soon, when I'm going through rapid change. It can take 10 years or more to look back on myself with amusement. Which is what it takes, you know, to come to acceptance, sometimes.
> I ramble.why don't you just put pen to paper and see what happens? nothing catastrophic is gonna happen..you might just enjoy yourself.:)
i hear you concerning wishing you'd hung on to old diaries...years ago i threw away a diary i had starting writing in when i was 9 years old..boy would i like to get my hands on that sucker now, lol..
<and the scrapbook I had, I loved making this scrapbook. It's all gone, thrown away in a fit of young adulthood. You know, that I-can't-believe-that-was-me ...?
i understand exactly. i've thrown stuff like that away on impulse and later regretted it, too..anyway, i don't think you were looking for real advice, but just rambling, as you say, so i will segway for a moment...
since you're a musical/auditory type person like i am. do you find that people's voices are really important to you? i was curious whether a guy's voice is as important to you as it is to me. like, if a guy had a squeaky voice or something, i don't think i could handle it, lol..i love a sexy, compassionate tone to a guy's voice..or just a nice tone...a nice tone *is* sexy..you know what i mean..and the way he talks..ya gotta like his accent..you know that singer..john mayer i think his name is..he sings that song..your body is a wonderland, which i *hate*, but, anyway, for some reason his accent irritates the $%$% out of me..it's this subtle irritating accent when he sings. (haven't heard him talk.) i rarely react so strongly and negatively to an accent, but there is just something about his that drives me nuts! (in a bad way.) i don't think i could listen to that..know what i'm sayin..now i'm rambling..but that was the intention.......have a BEAUTIFUL night darling susan...wish i had a guy here with me to say that to, lol...know what i mean??? i *know* you do....:):):):)
bon nuit, susanne,
amy
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