Posted by sunny10 on February 9, 2005, at 12:23:17
In reply to Re: Susan, posted by AdaGrace on February 8, 2005, at 17:18:43
> I don't recall a time when I was truely happy. Was I alwasy this unsattified with life? I wasn't abused physically as a child, mentally for sure...but was I unsattified? or just unhappy? Is there a difference? Now I am totally confused that that is why I don't want to go back. Family memories good and bad aren't affecting my future. At least I don't think they are.
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> Geeze, WTF do I do know?
AdaGrace, I wanted to mention something to you that my T told me when I was seeing her.She told me that "adult survivors of childhood emotional abuse have an extremely hard time finding contentment because there is no concrete trauma/s to focus on overcoming".
She told me that it would be hard to do, but that what I needed to do was to focus on starting all over again. Surround myself with the people I want there (no longer chosen by my relatives), find a hobby, generate a "dream" and run with it.
My SO and I have recently decided to move to Hawaii in August 2006 when our two year lease is up.
There are those who tell me that I need to grow up- and they're right- I'm working on it. THIS time, though, I'm not going to deny myself all of the life stages that I had to skip because of the abuse.
I'm not sure if this helps you- it may sound like complete hogwash right now- but this is the road I'm travelling, and the fork in the road that you face seems similar to the one I had to choose from...
I hope this rambling helps- sorry if it doesn't...
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