Posted by sunny10 on February 11, 2005, at 12:38:53
In reply to Re: Childhood Memories » sunny10, posted by AdaGrace on February 10, 2005, at 15:52:59
I intellectually understand WHY my childhood was an unloving and scary time (emotionally crippled parents in their own ways, ultimately). Thus I also choose not to "have ill feeling towards my childhood", as you say, but that doesn't make my low self-esteem, chemical depression, et cetera GO AWAY.
They are the PRODUCTS of my childhood, whether or not I "blame" anyone for the issues I face today.
I have a significant other (SO). But I have to love myself first. He is a strong alpha male who deserves a strong alpha female. I couldn't love him correctly until I learned to love myself.
And on the days that I don't like myself? HE doesn't like me either. But it's also true that when he's beating himself up over something, I don't like him!
I have NO idea whether this helps you or not- all I have to contribute is what I go through in this life. Susan said it pretty well when she told you it was a wild ride and to hold on.
You WILL love again- and I would NEVER expect you to settle for less than that.
You have been strong for me before; I'm trying to be strong for you this time.... (is it working at all???)
hugs,
sunny10
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