Posted by tulip04 on September 26, 2004, at 7:47:31
I'm hoping someone out there can help me with this... I was in a relationship for 4 years, he moved in during the last year and it all went downhill from there. Quick story, I loved this man with all of my heart and truly trusted him. One day he just decided to leave -- and I had no idea why.. After about 6 months I began to cope and deal with him just not having the maturity to deal with an intimate relationship -- it was hard though because he was very intimate with me, constantly hugging and holding me and telling me how much he loved me.
About two months ago, we talked through email and he finally told me the truth about what happened. He had cheated on me and was consumed by guilt. I found out later he might have been cheating on me for awhile and I had no idea. I feel so betrayed like I was living with someone I didn't even know.
My problem is that since I've found out, I've been consumed by anger. Anger towards him, anger towards myself for not getting out sooner. I have these dreams constantly about confronting him and wake up aggitated. I feel like this anger is never going to go away. Its been over a year since the breakup yet I feel like I'm dealing with it all over again. I feel like those years were a lie and I was totally fooled. How do I move past this? My friends are completely sick of hearing about it -- which I can completely understand, its been a year since he left, so I don't talk about it much, but its consuming my life. How do I get over this anger without a way to vent it out?
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