Posted by icubaby on January 16, 2012, at 23:18:24
In reply to Re: Suicidal but not depressed - whats going on?, posted by emmanuel98 on January 16, 2012, at 20:25:02
> I know exactly what you mean. I fight off suicidal thoughts even when I don't feel particularly depressed. It's helped me a lot to work with a DBT therapist. I think suicide seems like kind of release valve for me. A way out if I need it. There is something almost reassuring about suicidal ideation though it also terrifies me because I have come very close to dying on three occasions now. But this is the kind of thing therapy is good for.
Dear Emmanuel, I am sorry that you are struggling with suicidal feelings too. I have read about DBT and bought a workbook and worked through the exercises. I thought that it was helpful but the suicidal thoughts are constant. I just have to learn to ride them out like a wave. This sounds easy but it is hard because the waves are big and frequently come rolling in. I think that somehow my brain became conditioned to think of suicide long after the feelings of depression has subsided and I don't know why.
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