Posted by paisleygirl on January 10, 2012, at 21:08:59
In reply to Re: lonely/dbt/borderline?/crazy?, posted by Raisinb on January 10, 2012, at 18:45:06
thanks for the replies.
my therapist's plan is that i go the dbt group and then she would see me once a week to do the exercises or homework with me.
i don't know. i am stubborn and i dont like being forced in to doing something.
part of me is like i'd rather self-destruct then do her plan. i feel like she's trying to control me or something.
i'm very upset. i don't feel well. she says something like that she hopes that i'm feeling bad enough that i will give anything a try... i feel like that's kind of mean.
part of me wants to hurt myself. part of me wants to scream. part of me wants to give up and just go to dbt and suck it up. but i'm angry. i'm mad. i think the world sucks. i'm not happy. i wouldn't mind "sleeping forever".
i dont want to be thought of as crazy or messed up or needing anything. this makes me feel worse.
and all of this is a big secret to anyone in my life. i can't talk to anyone. so i feel like right now she's taking away the one person that i thought i could talk to. even though often i dont talk to her. i dont know. i'm so confused.
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