Posted by lola_2 on February 8, 2011, at 21:47:15
In reply to Re: one more thing..., posted by Annabelle Smith on February 8, 2011, at 20:48:41
> It is just sooo hard and sooo devastating to wait this long and not be able to meet, especially since I feel like time is not on my side. I worry that I won't be able to sleep tonight. And then I am so scared my session will be canceled. This is so hard.Keep telling yourself it isn't going to be cancelled. allow yourself to worry and be upset if it does get cancelled, but right now you are wasting good nonworry time on something that might or might not happen. And I personally think it will not be cancelled (positive energy your way)
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> About faking it-- yes, I think I see and agree with you that we are in different roles for different people and in different situations. Also, we probably shouldn't wear our hearts totally on our sleeve, like the world is our therapists' couch. But...I really feel a sense of being fake that I just don't think most of the people around me have to struggle with on a daily basis-- I feel it to the sense that it dramatically interrupts my daily functioning. It makes me afraid. It makes me mess up interviews. I makes me be able to be close to no one.This is something you definately should talk to your therapist about. Im a different person with so many people. I also carry a smile everywhere. Mostly guenuine but when Im having a bad day I just want to bite people's heads off, not smile. And sometimes I do. But overall, Its just more appropriate to show the hurting side of yourself to select people and have a front for everyone else. Keep your facade for the more superfiticial relationships and start to show your friends and family a little of how you feel. They may surprise you and be really supportive.
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> I look around me and a lot of people, while they aren't always doom and gloom, do, I think, have a reasonably honest way of presenting themselves. They don't always smile if things are fine. They aren't mean about it, but they are honest.
> That I am not.
Maybe try to be honest with the people close to you. It might be a huge weight off yoru shoulders. I believe a lot of people walk around in pain but not showing it.
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