Posted by B2Chica on November 28, 2010, at 22:39:05
In reply to Re: not sure what to title this (trigger)_nd 4 hlp? » B2Chica, posted by obsidian on November 28, 2010, at 22:07:16
i'm a mother of two amazing girls.
but one is 3 and refuses to go to bed, and the other is 1 and is into this wont sleep unless you rock me for a half hour phase.
i actually let her cry it out tonight..:( but i knew it had to be done. i was loosing it.my DH doesn't do much regarding the children. Except tonight when he saw that i was yelling at them for about an hour. ya, mother of the year here.
i cant sleep cuz both have been a little sick and it kills me to take my meds early then fall asleep and have to wake 20 min later to get one or the other for whatever reasons.
yes, there are two of us, but "I" am the primary.
docs know about it, upsets T, but pdoc ready to call DH and lecture him LOL, i almost wish he would.i'm not really isolated, just in another room, it doesn't matter. its the anger i want to run and grab meeds and take thempushing my limits one more too many each night. onemore
i don't know whats happened.
painting makes me feel better, but i work in oils and too strong smell for little ones. i've contemplated changing to acrillyc, but there's something about oils, i need.
alsowhen would i do that? 4:30 am? or 10:00 at night till whenever? smelling the house and getting bitched out about the smellnot to mention what it might tdo to the kiddos lungs.god, right now i honestly want to just be taken to the hospital. (never thought i'd say that).
oh, well a few weeks ago a coworker killed himself. but we weren't extremely close, butdamn. he was the kindest, sweetest kid i'd met. he was amazing. THAT was a MAJOR loss for humanity.
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btw, can you read my post on meds board and tell me if i'm ok.think i am but checkin.thanks
b2c.
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