Posted by Daisym on April 29, 2010, at 23:11:51
In reply to Re: I don't understand what I'm feeling » Daisym, posted by TherapyGirl on April 29, 2010, at 21:04:14
This is my worry - that I can only feel connected over the trauma - and does that mean I need to keep it front and center? Am I "afraid" to be happy? We've been talking about which is harder for me, "being loved" or "loving someone." They are equally dangerous for different reasons. I think I believe him when he says we aren't done when I feel better. We are done when I'm ready to be done. But maybe deep down I don't?
Only telling him didn't feel happy. It felt like searching around for stuff that must have happened and been important but it didn't seem worth sharing. And maybe that is part of this - EVERYTHING gets kept inside -- good, bad --- I'm so self-contained and this really highlighted that.And yes, yes, yes - I admit to having the thought that he is sick of my crap and is moving me along to really see the balance of life - positive and negative. He'll say that isn't true, we move at my readiness, not his. But what if he is getting worried that I'll never be ready?
Thanks for the guesses. They were all spot on.
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