Posted by Verloren on January 25, 2010, at 15:35:06
In reply to I used to love my T, now I don't..., posted by Verloren on January 24, 2010, at 13:22:43
I am so angry and hurting I can hardly type so please excuse any grammar or spelling errors.
I left a msg for my T telling her to call me and briefly discussed the issue of my return to work. I said I would discontinue the iop and wanted to discuss future treatment. I gave her the times I would be unavailable to answer the phone. She called back during the time I specifically said I was unavailable a basically terminated me via voicemessage.
She said "I'm not planning on following you after you leave the day treatment program"
I didn't even understand at first that she meant, she was terminating me so I had to call her back for clarity.
Sure enough she said that because of my "binge drinking" and because I didn't work well with the pdoc she uses, that she could not continue to see me. She revealed that she thought she would have more time while I was in the program to say all this.
She WAS plotting all along to terminate me and getting me into the iop only served to make it easier for her to do so.
I am so TIRED of people rejected me because it's convenient for THEM. What about me?! I just need to vent here. I came home a just screamed after that message. How dare she! MY whole day is ruined.This is unethical and immoral. I hate this. Now I'm left to pick up the pieces with another therapist and we will have to spend months-years getting me to trust the process again. Now I fear I will always be waiting for a therapist to drop me. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???? Am I really THAT bad??? How can I fail at therapy? I thought it was supposed to get better with therapy.
Now I feel like I need a lawyer because I spent time and money on the iop at her suggestion when it was the only easy way for her to give me the boot. And she repeatedly said all the while that she would not terminate me then SHE DID!!! And these past 2 weeks were hell in the iop that I hated!I just can't stop crying and now I can't even see the keyboard anymore so I have to stop typing
-Hurting badly
poster:Verloren
thread:934868
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20091212/msgs/934964.html