Posted by Dewd on December 17, 2009, at 18:55:14
In reply to Re: Longing for Ts kindness, posted by Helana on December 17, 2009, at 13:26:17
I couldnt help but just be touched by what you said, im so honored that you would share all this :) i feel like crying because thats exactly how i feel but my cousing and sister are in the living room hehehe ill cry as a text :`( I have so much to talk about i hope its okay for me to write alittle bit only right now im feeling alittle overwhelmed, im so touched that what i wrote was what you went through and that it helped to know ur not alone :)
i dont know, you know, like for me when i first began coming to therapy i resisted it soooo much, i tried to pretend i was getting better i was afraid to have needs i wanted to be self sufficient so that i could impress her, then later on in the therapy like about a year into my therapy it began to be more of a warm place you know like you can be yourself and stuff, i gave her this gift that i worked a long time and she was so touched it made her day, i still remember her wonderful smile too,
later we began to hug after sessions and i would say im sorry im so needy, she would gently whisper its okay dont be sorry, those moments in my therapy were so special i revealed this other side of me, the little child in me asking to be held and wanting to be loved,the neeedy child who always wept in the rain and no one would notice, she noticed and that ment so much that she was loving to heal my wounds...
...when i said i know we cant be friends outside of therapy but i know were still friends in here right? it was tough for her to say that we werent friends in the traditional sence, although she thought of our relationship as special, she thought about me as special, she would tell me she really enjoys working with me and her supervisor told me she speaks very highly of me, it was so wonderful to hear all those things you know, for me growing up with little praise from others, and approval she means the world to me.but when she told me she wasnt my friend i felt abandoned like the deepest need in my heart was cut off, man im tearing up again lol
poster:Dewd
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