Posted by TherapyGirl on July 16, 2009, at 17:27:26
In reply to Re: Still no response -- to anything ((Sigh)) » TherapyGirl, posted by rskontos on July 15, 2009, at 21:40:49
Thanks, AnnieRose, Muffled and RSK. I really do appreciate the support and I'm trying to listen to what you're all saying about a new T. It's very hard for me to even consider it right now, but I promise I'll keep the option in mind. I think part of the problem is that it took me 4 years to speak to this T -- four years of at least weekly sessions, mostly in complete silence. I just don't feel like I can go through that again and yet it's fairly likely to take me a long time (maybe not 4 years) to feel safe enough to talk to someone. I just don't know.
T did finally call me back today -- this is the first response I've gotten to either of the messages I've left in the last 8 days. She said she wanted me to know she had gotten my messages and that she was willing to work with me. She confirmed that she would leave my slot open until I decided what to do. I told her I might be ready by next week and she said that was fine.
Not exactly warm and encouraging, but at least it was something. I really, really want to do this goodbye better than either of us has managed to do it so far. I'm trying to put some ideas in place to make it work better for both of us. I guess we'll see how open she is to that.
I hate all of this. And I miss my T.
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