Posted by raisinb on May 28, 2009, at 21:43:59
I walked out after fifteen minutes. Sometimes my therapist gets this totally dead, withdrawn air and seems absolutely indifferent. It makes it worse that we had an amazing session on Monday (my suspicion is that she always gets this way after we have an amazing session--she denies it).
To tell the truth, we've only had a few great sessions since she's been back. Overall I feel like--or I am afraid that--she doesn't care anymore or that she's just less committed.
About an hour and a half after I left, I left her a message saying that I wasn't sure I wanted to come on Monday. That perhaps we both needed a break. Then I said, "to tell the truth, I think *you* need a break. So, if you want to continue, let me know in the future. I'd like to work this out. I'd like you to think about it and decide what you really want to do. Please don't worry about abandoning me at this point--in the long run it will be much less destructive for me than this kind of back and forth. You don't have to call me back right away, if you want to think about it or consult, or whatever. My # is -------. Thanks."
She didn't call me back tonight. Damn. This might be it. Not sure I'm ready at all.
poster:raisinb
thread:898180
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20090515/msgs/898180.html