Posted by Deneb on April 15, 2009, at 19:51:55
In reply to Re: I feel like I am losing my mind *trigger* » Deneb, posted by SLS on April 15, 2009, at 17:30:29
I am going to go to SF because I believe the risk of me killing myself is very small. Many things need to come together for me to kill myself.
First I have to be upset enough to go to the Golden Gate Bridge all by myself. It is very likely that I will post something on PB were I to get upset and hopefully someone will be there to chat with me and calm me down.
At this moment to minimize the risk I plan on not visiting the Golden Gate Bridge at all. Now going to the bridge itself takes planning. I'd have find out how to get there and then I would have to take the bus to the bridge. It is not like a bunch of pills I have on hand and can just impulsively take.
Once I get to the Bridge, I'd have to climb over the railing and from what Racer has told me, it is very high, especially for someone as short as I am (4'11"). Now even if I were to attempt to climb the railing it is most likely that I will hesitate and struggle to get around the railing and it is likely someone would stop me.
Right now I plan on planning things to do alone to fill up my time, as I will be alone for 4 days out of 6. With things to keep me busy, I hope I will not feel lonely and sad.
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