Posted by Kenya on April 15, 2009, at 16:47:34
In reply to Re: My T just dropped me today.. like it was nothing., posted by FindingMyDesire on April 13, 2009, at 2:09:19
Hi Everyone,
Last week was a very VERY difficult week for me. I can honestly say that without your kind and considerate posts, I might not have made it through everything. I wish I had time to reply to each post, and I will try to later, but you all should know that I've read your responses many times over in order to stay strong and get through these horrible feelings about myself that my therapy seems to have created.
To answer some of your questions, when we first started, my T was very caring and empathetic. She would call to check up on me, and leave me really encouraging messages to get through some rough days. She sometimes would cry when I couldn't, always called me back on time, and never made me feel bad about myself. Obviously that has all changed at this point, but at ONE time, I think she was the kind of therapist that anyone would want to see.
UPDATE: She did eventually call me back (about 4 days after me calling her about wanting to talk to her) and left me a message asking me if I wanted to come in for a final session. I still have not called her. Now that I'm more stable, I realize that she has been more harmful than helpful. I have continuously found myself leaving therapy feeling guilty, and wondering if I've made her mad or upset, and during session I hold back because I don't want to offend her. I'm not too experienced with therapy, but I was a psych major in college and I know that therapists should not make their clients feel that way. I'm not sure yet if I will call her or not.
Thank you again for all of your wonderful replies.
It's still a little shaky, but I'm hanging in there.
- Kenya
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