Posted by Dinah on March 3, 2009, at 23:15:29
In reply to Re: But I still leave feeling hurt sometimes » Dinah, posted by obsidian on March 3, 2009, at 21:57:12
I definitely feel that way a lot in my life. Although I also go out of my way to be as invisible as possible, so I think maybe I'm contrary.
But I don't usually feel that way with my therapist.
I think as I wrote about it and thought about what I wrote, that I realized that while I try to be open to criticism, and I want to be open to criticism, maybe I get more angry with it than I think. But I can't admit that because I want him to be able to be honest with me.
I don't know. I was really really ok with him falling asleep on me and basically telling me my voice was flat and monotonous when I was at my most emotional. I was ok with working on it.
But maybe not ok with his thinking the reason for my flat and monotonous tone was that I wasn't putting forth emotional energy?
I suppose I can't not go Friday. I can't even tell him I don't want to go. Because then he'll say, "See? I really can't be honest with you."
Oh well, maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. Thank heavens my memory is rotten.
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