Posted by SlugSlimersSoSlided on December 22, 2008, at 16:02:12
In reply to This is something about boundaries and walls » SlugSlimersSoSlided, posted by Racer on December 22, 2008, at 15:38:44
Good site info, thanks Racer, some of the stuff I don't understand though. But I will try to look at it again.
All I know is that my whole life I have always fallen into the giving role and when the I need someone, they aren't there. If feels like rejection and it hurts. I also need to not take things so personally, which the link you posted, mentioned. It is one of the symptoms of PTSD though, because we have been hurt so much in our lives. It triggers deep abandonment of being a child who was severely neglected.
Maybe I should start a thread soon about the symptoms of PTSD because like other disorders, it isn't simple. I think it isn't a subject talked about too often on Babble, so it might be not understood. Even I am beginning to learn more about it, stuff I never knew before.
A lot of my less than positive reactions I have had on Babble have a lot to do with PTSD. I am now just finding out how my past affects me now in my actions. A lot of the behavior might be seen as acting out in anger, but it actually isn't. It is a very hurt person crying out for help because they are so scared of being hurt and alone. When ignored, it actually makes the triggered person more desperate for help because they literally feel like they are going to die and that they are very alone. In my case, it was how I felt as a child being abused. All I wanted as a little child was somebody to help or care, because I was so afraid.
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