Posted by obsidian on November 22, 2008, at 0:24:06
In reply to Re: been thinking of you lots.....pls take gentle care » obsidian, posted by zenhussy on November 21, 2008, at 12:23:22
> kindness is easy for others in the darkness of depression.....especially when one has lived through some of those horrible pits of despair. it comes from the experience of living *through* it.....from surviving.
I'm sorry zen :-(
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> getting scripts---good!I got them, took a couple of effexor. I think I've missed about 2 days worth, or 6 pills, but I can't be sure
anyway, I was getting the weird sensations in my head, and I was feeling foggy (that'll be the effexor withdrawal), and it's nice to know that if anything that will stop>
> going home to cry---good too....really! it is a natural release and sometimes we all need to give ourselves permission to cry and not feel bad, wrong or whatever negatives we might assign to crying.I did a little sobbing at work by myself at the beginning of the day. It was like it took all my strength to go there, and then when I was finally alone I cried because I just feel awful.
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> seeing T---good, and probably frustrating as well from what you've been sharing here on board lately. going to go w/ the "challenging you" theory instead of the "don't give a F" theory.I still don't know what to make of it all.
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> how about not seeking any solutions right now? sounds crazy maybe but given how rotten you're feeling why not give yourself some compassionate slack in the problem solving dept.?
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> cry, be nice to you, try to eat something good for you, have some tea if you like that, take a bath if that works for you, play computer games, read trashy novels, comic books, whatever........but please do things that make you feel a tiny bit better.a blanket would be nice, and a dark room, and a television and some books
I just need to get through one more day of work.I ended up going over my friend's house with our other friend. I was all set to go home and put myself into the fetal position, but I felt like I needed to have us all together (they weren't feeling great). They don't know however how incredibly badly I am feeling, and I think it might freak them out a little.
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> treat yourself w/ the same kindness you'd give to a friend in a heartbeat.....you ARE that friend to others and others would have a fit knowing how hard you're being on yourself.I don't know if I am being hard on myself.
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> gently does it sid. slowly and gently.I'm afraid I won't be able to handle any other way.
thanks zen
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