Posted by FindingMyDesire on October 6, 2008, at 11:00:45
In reply to Bad place, bad place (miscarriage TMI) + LONG, posted by FindingMyDesire on October 5, 2008, at 4:24:17
I just don't know what to say. It's so strange to feel so comforted by strangers. You all have said such loving and supportive things! It has truly made it more difficult to close off from the world.
Yesterday I was home alone most of the day. We just didn't plan well for childcare and it was too much to have my daughter here... as wonderful and uplifting as she is... I checked for your posts throughout the day whenever I was really slipping and it really, really helped. It seemed like every time I check someone new had written something.
Eventually I picked up the phone and actually called a friend (which was so hard to do) and just started crying. She instantly said, "I'll be right there." She spent a few hours with me until I needed to sleep again. It was really helpful. I know I wouldn't have called her with all of your encouragement. Really.
I'm taking today off work. I hope to spend most of the time writing in my journal. I am still totally consumed with my T and the fact that she doesn't even know I'm going through this. I hope to sort through some of my feelings - many of you helped reflect back to me - and write something I can share with her on Thursday.
I really wish I could articulate how much I appreciate so many of you taking the time to write. Even saying that seems scary to me right now. But please know that I feel your support.
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