Posted by LittleGirlLost on September 22, 2008, at 21:57:17
In reply to I love my T, but is she triggering my sadness?, posted by LittleGirlLost on September 19, 2008, at 20:03:05
It's weird, but I'm feeling lots better.
After talking to my T yesterday, she encouraged me to go out with a friend. As much as I knew I should, I just didn't have the energy, or the motivation; I had been trying to push myself all day (all week really). But after speaking to her, it was different, it was the extra boost I needed to push myself. Could it be that I wanted to hear it from her? Anyway, I called a friend and we went for a bite to eat.
I went back to work today, and well work was work, but in terms of this deep, desperate, aching sadness - it's just not there. Maybe it's diversion, part of it last week was hormonal, but now I'll be seeing my T tomorrow, and of course I'll need to bring all of this up, but it will be in my typical "news reporter" fashion. It's very hard for me to get back into the feelings because I almost don't remember them in a sense, they just seem so far away. I wish I could have seen her last Friday when the "hangover" was so bad; I/it would have been so authentic, and I'm always so (self)censored that that's a tough place to get to.
Wow though, what would trigger those maternal longings last week that were so strong it felt like they were suffocating me, and now just like that, they subside?
lgl
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