Posted by lemonaide on September 21, 2008, at 21:44:25
I didn't have therapy last week, for many reasons, to save money, etc. But it also has given me time to think about whether or not my T is helping me right now. I know he has helped me in ways I didn't even know I needed help in, I have learned so much. But it seems like since his illness, he isn't the same and my sessions are not very helpful. It actually is frusterating that he doesn't remember what he should, I know he can't help it. I love him as a person, I think the world of him, but I think I need more right now in regards to therapy.
I hate to say that, but I think I am hanging on because I want him to come back. So I don't know what to do. I feel like I am starting all over again in some issues.
There is this T who I talked to a few months ago when I went shopping for one when my T made me angry, I liked him on the phone. I was wondering if I should possible set up an appointment with this guy, and slowly terminate with my current T, while seeing if this other guy will work. I don't want to be left T less, so maybe I should at least try to find one.
My heart is torn though, because my T has done so much but it seems it come to a point where he has done all he can do, and maybe if he didn't get sick, it would be more. I kinda wonder if I just need accept what is going on and try to help myself move on.
Thanks for reading, if you got this far. As you can tell I feel so confused.
poster:lemonaide
thread:853334
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20080920/msgs/853334.html