Posted by Daisym on May 21, 2008, at 0:33:40
In reply to Is it awful of me?, posted by Dinah on May 20, 2008, at 20:30:39
I don't think so. I think you are unflinching in your honesty about your feelings.
But it might be worth thinking about self-worth. I can't help but wonder if somewhere in your unconscious is the thought, "Am I worth that much money?" - or what I think often, "who am I to have spent so much money on my self?" I think AnnieRose is right - you might want to explore this a bit and figure out what the shame is and why it lingers after so many years. I do understand the society frowns on long-term therapy. And I also understand how awful it feels to have such strong feelings for someone that you have to pay to stay in your life. But it is the nature of the beast - I guess the good with the bad.
I try to think of the money I spend on therapy kind of like I do when I buy the food I like instead of the stuff that is cheapest. I could eat for a lot less but I don't choose to. The investment of money in food, like the investment of money in therapy, keeps me healthy and happy.
And my clicker stands at 5 years next week and over 700 sessions - 703 I think. But who's counting?
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