Posted by Dinah on May 6, 2008, at 20:21:39
In reply to Re: I can't do it again. I just can't. And I won't. » Dinah, posted by seldomseen on May 6, 2008, at 18:34:39
Some guilt is forcing its way past the flashbacks of post-Katrina. I swear, except maybe for huddling over my computer in the hotel thinking that New Orleans would never again be habitable, my biggest trauma was effectively losing him for so long without actually losing him. We spent days in bumper to bumper traffic with low gas, a whole day searching shelters for my inlaws, the death of my inlaws within a few months from the stress and my feelings of guilt and responsibility about that, all the devastation around here. All that and other than the first few days, my therapist's lack of connection for so very long is my most distressing memory.
But still. If I care about him is it fair for me to dump more stress in his lap when he's apparently overstressed? Is it fair of me to flee when I know he'll find that upsetting? I know it's my therapy, and I pay him and everything, but I still care about him.
I still think I'm going to have to do it, but now I feel really guilty and uncaring about it.
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