Posted by B2chica on April 23, 2008, at 12:11:38
In reply to Re: tired of it...**S. TRIGGER** » B2chica, posted by Dinah on April 23, 2008, at 12:01:50
my T isn't the answer. nothing is. its the same problems over and over. i'm just messed up in the head. over and over and freaking over again. dont you ever get tired of having me come on here and saying i want to die?? seriously? then i get better, then i come back AGAIN. i'm tired of it.
i DO want to be there for my DD. but then i think about how DH and i fight and the things he says that i try to correct so that she wont take things to heart when she gets older, and i feel like its an endless battle. that if i weren't there there would be no fighting.
i know what's right for her but my DH doesn't see it and doens't understand it and argues with me then says its all in my head and why should he listen to me after all i see a therapist.
i am angry, angry at myself for not being able to stop the repetition of what i grew up with (tears). i wanted so much more for my daughter.maybe with me out of her life he can just raise her the way he wants no arguement. afterall his family is good. its just different from what i want for her.
i know his sister would step right up for her.
i have some savings that would help pay off our debt.
i just have to find a time.
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