Posted by LadyBug on April 21, 2008, at 21:26:34
In reply to I have to wonder..., posted by LadyBug on April 21, 2008, at 17:25:07
I think there is something in all your replies that makes sense to me. I called and left my T a voice mail to say I was letting her know I wasn't coming in, I said, thanks then hung up. Now I'm scared to death!!! If I know her like I think I do, she will call me sometime tomorrow and try to get me to come in anyway. I'm scared of her at the moment. She is going to put the blame on me for what has happened. I know her in that way too. She will own up to her part of it and if SHE thinks she's made any errors she'll tell me. But right now, I think she is blaming me, just me.
I asked my daughter what she thought I should do, nice, ask a 16 year old for advice? She said, don't go if you don't want to, but I'd probably call and let her know.
I know in my heart I have to have some peace of mind with this. She's played a big role in my life the past several years. I told her last week I was sorry if I hurt her in anyway. So do I need to apologize again? I think it's her turn. I'm so full of anxiety right now over this that I'm sick to my stomach. Why do I let this person have so much power over me?
I really appreciate ALL of your replies. I really do. I'm sorry I didn't respond to each of you separately.
I wish I dared go see her now, just not tomorrow. I wish she'd make a special time outside of her schedule to talk about this, like come to my house, not really, but that would be funny. That would never happen.
Ooooooooooooooh Dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
LadyBug
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