Posted by sunnydays on April 14, 2008, at 10:38:16
In reply to Re: change.... maybe good, maybe not » sunnydays, posted by Dinah on April 13, 2008, at 20:31:07
> I was going to suggest that you might want to journal. :) That way you can reach out to him by talking to him anytime in your journal.
*** Yes, although right now I am finding it hard to find words to write, either to myself or him, about this. I'm too self-conscious about it I think. But he said he wanted me to keep writing, because I express myself eloquently and he didn't want me to lose that outlet.
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> Do you have a picture of him? Or a recording? I have both, and while I rarely listen to the recordings, his picture is on my screensaver, along with pictures of other people who are important to me.**** No. I have been thinking of asking to take a picture of him, but I'm worried it would bother me because it might look forced or something, and it might not look like the image I carry in my mind's eye. So maybe I'll stick with that one. :) I do have a stone he gave me to carry around, though.
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> You know, I see some positives in this too. If you can manage to internalize him at least a little, you'll be able to have him with you all the time. Which is the most reliable way to have him, or at least that's my experience.**** Right. And I think that's what we're working towards. He said, "After all, this should be what we're working towards, not towards you moving in next door." And then I probably looked sad or something, so he backtracked a little and said, "Of course, that would be nice, but that's why you're here after all, right, to work away from that?"
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> My therapist says that the "him" I carry around with me is probably better than the him in person. And in some ways he's right. :)**** Yeah, I can definitely understand that! My T keeps saying I might not like him so much if I really knew him... which bothers me a little because I think I know the most important things about him and it always makes me wonder what he's referring to!
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