Posted by Happyflower on April 6, 2008, at 19:51:15
In reply to I want to hate my old T, posted by Happyflower on April 6, 2008, at 11:43:16
I just hate that I feel this way, and I know you are all sick of it here. It is like I am trying to learn to hate him, so he won't mean so much. I am not doing a very good job.
I want nothing more to talk to him, and probably could if I went up to him. This isn't about missing him as my therapist, I have a great T now, but I miss him. I keep trying to fill that void, and I did with the part of missing a T, my current T is more T than I could ever ask for. But my old T gave me much more, and that is what I miss. ( The non-T stuff he did) I feel like such a freak.
If I knew he didn't have feelings for me, I know I could give him up. But I know he does, and that is what is hard, because I still do too, even 9 mo. later. As much as I try to hate him, in a way to get over him, I still care about him a lot. It won't go away.
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