Posted by seldomseen on March 3, 2008, at 12:07:39
In reply to Re: To annierose + raisinb » seldomseen, posted by annierose on March 2, 2008, at 12:23:52
I know my therapist cares for me. I don't think that's my issue here. I'm not sure exactly what my issue is.
I don't know how to describe this ache that now simultaneously exists with ambivalence about giving in to it.
My gut is telling me not to, but my brain is telling me that we need to talk about it.
I did all the things that I knew to do this weekend to lose that feeling - I reattached to a community that I love and they welcomed me back with open arms. I re-united with my riding and took some long over due attempts to regain my love of it.
But still there is this ache to see him. I even did something I haven't done in years - went out and bought new clothes to wear to therapy. Again, it's like I see what is happening - I'm really having a "been there done that moment". And yet here I am.
It's very confusing. For the moment I am writing it off as side effect of the Buspar.
I'll keep you posted.
Seldom.
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