Posted by rskontos on February 3, 2008, at 22:49:56
In reply to Re: Definition of Dependent Relationship long, posted by Daisym on February 3, 2008, at 22:06:59
You know Dasiym, I guess, I have no real picture of it. I have not even thought of it in terms of that. And this is a very good exercise. I have begun, in terms, of therapy, thought about what I want out of. At first, I wanted my memories back. Now I have add to that, or maybe, replaced it with I want peace from the pain, I know that recovering them will bring. I new friend of mine told me recently that it seemed I wanted to be just a soul without a body. I thought long and hard on that and I decided that while yes that had a lot of appeal, I ultimately want to feel peace with my mind. I want to be able to look inside my head and feel at peace with what is there. If I need to become dependent on someone to do this, I guess I need to examine what dependent is. I have really no idea what it means. No real definition. I have never been program to understand it as everyone including my DH is dependent on me. Maybe, deep down inside, I long for it, but I am unable to do it because I don't have an idea of what it looks like. I have told my t I think I am crazy because of my voices in my head, the way I just go away in terms of consciousness and someone else takes over and lately that is happening a lot, sometimes I stay but I am not in control, and when asked to describe it, it sounds crazy to me. I have cried with him more than I ever have in my life. All these things seem so unsettling that more seems impossible. All my therapists says is we have more work..
The part of dependency as power over or giving themself away is terrifying...that seems like it already happened and it was not pretty so I can't see it happening like that. yes I agree about the part it is easier to struggle against the dependency than to confront the pain. I have the pride thing to, I would rather run and hide.
No you are not being pushy. And if this helps me grow and confront something I have not thought about then it is go. It will be worth it too. Thanks for the question and suggestion for a new thread...rsk
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