Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on January 28, 2008, at 15:24:17
In reply to Re: I feel so alone- no T for 10 days » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by Phillipa on January 28, 2008, at 10:37:29
I'm a mess. mind goes to dark place. even feet go there.
I made you chocolate fudge cookies
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O OO OOOI probably shouldn't be listening to Pelleas et Melisande. it's a little schizophrenic. brilliant sweeping string melodies and dark brooding interludes in muted brass. How many whole-tone chords can an orchestra play? Enough for light and dark symbolism to come to a tragic climax.
That was Debussy
I wish I could just stay in my safe place forever and ever. my bed. my comfy safe bed. but I cannot.
darkness is more compelling. I need to stop being so melodramatic. it's the depressive voice inside of me. at moments like this it speaks through a very thin veil- such that I barely can see it, but can hear it right inside my head. :'|
I'm afraid that I'm out of coping mechanisms for now. well, the beneficial ones, at least. they helped me pass the afternoon.
now iPod is playing arvo pärt. also very ambiguous tonality. is it hopeful or? despairing?
-Ll
p.s. I will be safe. don't worry about me. stakes are too high to be unsafe.
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