Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on January 28, 2008, at 12:17:38
In reply to Re: I feel so alone- no T for 10 days » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by muffled on January 28, 2008, at 10:45:17
> LLurpy, my T says to try and figger all what is stressing me. Oftimes its many things, even little things, all together.
I guess you're right. my place is totally trashed too. that increases my stress a LOT
> Then try and break it down to do something about things you might be able to do something about. Eg, you cut your work hours down. That was good.
thanks. it was hard, but I think I negotiated well
> CBT stuff, for all that its dry and boring as hell, and sometimes unfortunately triggering, can be useful.
I will get out my journal and my stuff and just do some basic lists of feelings, thoughts, ratings, counterthoughts, etc.
> Maybe you can do some llurpylists.see my post on social... there's a llurpielyst there if I ever saw one.
> Your looking at getting a new home, working at your marriage(you been to MC yet?), ***[nope- cause H is outta town] being in a new area with few close friends at hand, working at an extreemly challenging job and still learning how to cope with that (cuz ANYbody who has any feelings at all would struggle with what you do...). You have your own demons to struggle with, you have the vagaries of meds. Damn girl, you got alot on your plate. So of course your stressed and falling bacl to old tried and true coping stuff at times! It takes time, a long time to learn and adapt into your psyche, new and better coping mechanisms.
I guess it's time for a llurpielist of healthy vs. unhealthy coping mechanisms
healthy- pampering via bath and stuff; listening to music (but not Requiem's); playing scales on my violin; quilting with loud music playing, knitting, exercising, lying in the sunshine, guided meditation, progressive muscle relaxation, worry flooding (this is where you set the timer for 15 minutes and think of the worst case scenarios and then for the next 5 minutes you think of more positive and likely outcomes)bad coping mechanisms. eating too much sweets. drinking too much alcohol, rupturing my epidermis. walking down the dark cold highway to dunkin donuts at 3am (yes. guilty)
> LL I hope you can give yourself credit for how much you have accomplished just since I have known you on babble! You are strong, but dammit, your strong cuz YOU work hard at it. Your an amazing woman to me.
It's so hard because I have so much little day to day stuff to do, I guess I miss the big picture. h is always asking me to do things, and then he has to remind and remind me. I feel like a constant failure for being such a procrastinator. I can't even enjoy my day off because I have such an overwhelming to do list. Everything seems so crucial (steps to buying/financing house especially). I just feel like it's all too much :(
> So I hope you can reach out to T and tell him you are working so hard at struggling along. Is there an interim T while your T is gone, just someone who can remind you of right things to do when you getting overwhelmed?
T told me that I could call him if I have any problems. but Idon't wanna disturb him in the hospital. poor T.
> I know dissoc is scarey :-( But it seems to pass these episodes. It seems to be a sign that your stressed. Just remember, that it does pass. You will find your equilibrium again. And each time you go thru a tough time, you get stronger and learn more. At the time of peak intensity, its SO hard, but just keep telling yourself it WILL ease. It WILL.
> Take good care, thanks for the brownie!
> M"It will ease"
thank you muff. you are grounding. damm*t I'm weepy again
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