Posted by rskontos on December 22, 2007, at 18:32:05
In reply to Thx for replies guys...., posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 17:52:53
Muffled, when I felt like that I invited them out. And that is when one who had all the tears let it flow like hot lava. I was just sitting and I said whoever wants out come on, I will let you do your thing. And then she came with her tears, and I cried for quite a while. I havent done alot of crying since. It felt good to let some out. I don't know if that would work I didn't know that would happen when I did it. It just did. I am not sure it will work every time. Not that I will just do it all the time. I have decided to let them out when the voices get so chattering I cant hear anything else and my emotions seem out of balance and the anger is there. I think if you don't allow some of it then when it does come then it is too all over the place. But on the other hand I had a bunch of bad days. The 2.5 I spent when new T was so helpful. Calm us all down. Chattering is lower now too. I was like you I would not allow. New Doc says you have worked hard not to have feelings haven't you. I said yes. He says why. I said feelings hurt. He says but you had lots of people try to care for you. I said they might in long run hurt me. He says like your parents. I said yes. He said and now why can you so easily tell me all you have hidden for so long, I said because I am afraid I will become an empty vessel. No more feelings. All gone. I think that is bad. You do this long enough you forget how to have them. Right. Before he responded I said right. I am right. I didn't give him a chance to respond I am right. So you must let those that have the tears out so you don't forget you have them. That is what I think.
I hope this helps. Take my friend, and I am the one,
later gator.....rsk
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