Posted by rskontos on December 14, 2007, at 14:54:34
In reply to Re: For those that see a P-doc and therapist...help, posted by I need a hug on December 14, 2007, at 14:14:06
thanks hugs I needed to hear that i am so conflicted
i need something more than I am getting right now or else I just go back and stop doing anything and return to the empty vessel i feel i am really. my head is hurting some one is so close it makes my head hurt when they hover but with doing or saying anything.
i spoke to b2c littleone and that brought out the one that does everything and it is ok but now my head just hurts. I want so much to be more whole like muffled this being so split hurts and hurts. and when T said that god will let the memories come when they need to we wanted to say were was god when all this was happening then.....i was little needing mom to be a mom so i would not be having to be a mom to me and everyone
i am tired of parenting myself and my children and my h and my parents and my sisblings and it seems everyone in my family. i just want a break. so why not let someone else inside be in charge i just dont want the job anymore. I think i am gonna email her that. so what she dont email back. i am crying for the little one that waited for mom to be mom and dad to care for his family but that waiting was all for nothing because those parents never got it. no i had to do it i guess i don't remember. i know they made fun of me for stuff i couldn't do but what about what they did not do. No one made them accountable for what they did not do. And now t says i have to do it. again with cleaning up someone else's messes. i don't want a hug i just want to be left alone. alone to grow and be happy a person. a person with a future no I never had a future. now i feel it is all over. my life is gone it doesn't matter now is what one said to me last night and she is right it doesnt because now my life is half over and i am parts not a whole..i am sorry i am goiing on i humbly apologize.
i will call them monday and try to make an appt. thanks hugs.
rk
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