Posted by Wittgenstein on December 6, 2007, at 17:39:58
In reply to Re: Thanks Seldom, I went to see my babies(horses), posted by rskontos on December 6, 2007, at 17:07:37
I want to add a couple of things.
Firstly, I also tend to post only when I'm managing things, which probably gives a skewed perspective of where I am in therapy. When I'm down, my self-esteem issues make me too paranoid to continue things as normal. (And given my frequency of posting it seems I'm down more than I'm managing.) When I'm down everywhere I turn I believe that people are laughing at me and aching with the hatred and disgust they must feel toward me (not that I feel anyone is unjustified to feel that way) - normally I can keep these thoughts at bay and rationalise.
So I feel a bit of a cheat/deceiver - I don't mean it to be that way but I just can't be around when I'm in a bad place. In a way, I envy and admire those who can be open and ask for help when they're having a rough time of it as well as being around when things are on an even keel.
Secondly, Twinleaf, you said about your analyst's thoughts on termination. It took me until just a few weeks ago to bring up the question of 'how long will this last/how will it end?' - but got a similar answer - that it's my initiative when that happens, that it will happen only if I'm ready and when coming to see him is no longer useful for me - it brought a feeling of such safety to hear that. I'm glad you have the same freedom.
Witti
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