Posted by rskontos on December 5, 2007, at 8:52:50
In reply to Re: when my analyst begins talking..., posted by annierose on December 5, 2007, at 6:42:14
I think this is the most comforting moment for me to hear this thread and
Seldom, >>For me, I learned to love because I loved my therapist first, I am to trust because I finally trusted him>> this statement is the one that finally makes sense to me that it is ok to feel something for your therapist and to trust them........
I have been scared. I am not as far as you guys, and I am way messed up, my voices are too strong and I am not in control and must try to find a way to get control as my therapist says, I will at some point but I am in denial too so I have that to overcome and she says it is ok that some will still not trust her or the therapy itself. And we don't. But to see this statement it gives me comfort in trusting her some and maybe thinking about liking her alittle. You see I have avoided even seeing as a person cause I am afraid. She to me is an office right now. I couldnt afford to get attached or need another a person that might hurt me. I have had enough of that for one lifetime. Numbness is better than dealing with one more. But after what you wrote well I think maybe I might be able to love myself even which has always been my biggest issue I think.
And the rest of this thread, from Twinleaf's beautiful post of her awesome relationship with her t and the work she has put forth, to clarity of Witt (whom writes so well it makes me envious sometimes just kidding) and Annierose your making your T seem more like a person in your mind helps me to see that I need to make my T a person to me. Not an office. I have often cut her off when she tries to do that cause I don't want to see her that way. My bad. I hope she sees why I have done that. But I guess now I need to explain my actions next time...
Thanks guys for this insightful post/thread. Thanks so much for sharing. It has helped this messed up mind right now so much. I don't know if you read my post about my last therapy session but it was one of my worst so this thread helps alot. When your t sees the worst/well so far the worst, there maybe more bad to come who knows it is hard to get over it. Maybe that is why I didn't want to see her as too real.
You guys have helped me see how harmful that could be. You are so far in your therapy I see I have a long way to go.....
I am thrilled for you all....YOu see so wise and I am the like the little child with school still in front of me. Thanks so much
Take care each of you and good luck. Please post more. It sure helps.....
rk
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