Posted by Daisym on October 31, 2007, at 0:14:50
In reply to Re: Blurting, posted by muffled on October 30, 2007, at 23:33:09
The main thing is -- I don't FEEL angry at my therapist, I just feel angry. It is sort of like dealing with a sullen teenager - it has nothing to do with the person, it is about the world in general. So, because I know I'm not mad at him, I keep quiet. The lashing out is at some unknown force.
But perhaps there is truth in what each of you wrote. I am afraid of hurting his feelings. My feelings for him are intense and there are times when I feel frustrated that we talk about me doing all these things but I can't do them with him. Or he can't do them with me. But I've told him that.
Maybe this is testing him. Can I say this? Or this? Or this? Maybe I want him to know just how mad I am at all of this.
But the main thing that keeps coming up is outrage over the things that were done to me. I get so upset I practically shake over it. I think the wrong person is sitting in front of me - I want to scream at my abuser, pound on something and MAKE him remember what he did to me.
*sigh* It makes me want to withdraw again.
poster:Daisym
thread:792390
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