Posted by JoniS on October 30, 2007, at 21:47:19
In reply to Blurting, posted by DAisym on October 30, 2007, at 19:04:30
Daisy,
Sorry to hear about the tough times you're in. Sounds like a lot is going on. I was once close to a therapy group and it was sad to say goodbye.
And this is too familiar:
"...one day I feel young, the next very old. I'm figuring out that I'm lonely, and perhaps ready for a relationship and yet that is terrifying..."
Those thouhgts are exactly what run through my mind as I still consider ending my marriage. Life is hard.I sometimes want to blurt out stuff to my T as well. Sometimes I've done it, only to call him the next day and apologize. He always says "it's ok, you didn't hurt my feelings"
I'm not sure why I do it. I think it has something to do with our relationship. Like, maybe, because I want more. I want him to feel something for me, even just the tiniest bit like I feel for him. I know this doesn't make sense but I really think my anger and desire to blurt is my heart saying "don't you know I love you and I want you to love me!!!???" Of course my T is very professional and keeps proper boundaries, so if I said those words out loud, we'd just talk about it. (and then I'd love him and want him more!) Life is hard.
This may not be helpful at all, just thought I'd let you know I do it and maybe yours is similar. Even though it's hard, I'd try letting it out. Your T will handle it fine. Mine has handled it fine and yours seems like he's every bit as good as mine.
I hope you get some sort of resolution.
Take good care of yourself. I'm thinking of you.
Joni
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