Posted by muffled on October 4, 2007, at 22:37:37
In reply to Re: more DD/DID stuff...**TRIGGER** » muffled, posted by B2chica on October 4, 2007, at 8:35:43
> when IK is out and T was being really nice i think teen come out cuz when people are nice they want something, and teen trusts NO ONE. so she come to protect what might happen.
**well thats good she trying to watch out for everybody.
But mebbe she could let adult B2 help too? Trust is hard.> she wanted to leave the room physically, then she just didn't want to be present anymore.
**Well thats good she didn't just storm out.
> i sometimes use music to switch back to me. if i'm little one...soothing ethereal music, if i'm teen, hard but sometimes that encourages her...but i used lithium by evenescance (sp?) and that worked. i clenched hard and just became the music...that brought me back.
**Wow, thats SO cool bout the music thing, gonna have to think on that. Sometimes I listen to music alot, sometimes I don't. I am lucky, I seem to be able to, for the most part, fight my way back if I'm not the way I want to be, once I realize somehow(usu cuz of odd looks from people-I am very aware of body language)that its not me. Sometimes its a bit of a struggle, but I win. Nowadays its much better cuz there is much more trust internally.
> this also helps with the psychosis stuff i have going on.
> its like a protection sometimes.*music is amazing in its power.
> >> i think that's how i must have switched back before, by injuring myself.*ya, thats one of the things they say, SI to end a dissociative episode, to 'come back'.
> yes...SI, i think that's why my SI kept getting more and more severe. that i switched my reason for SI, that i started to do it more when teen was coming out (not knowing what was happening)cuz she was one giant ball of rage. when she'd cut and bad, when done, then ME would step in because i needed to 'take care of' my wounds.
> as a side note, i used to cut when i was younger too.*ya, now I don't SI much, it boggles my mind how i did some what I did. Ya, I did it younger, and mostly stopped, and then started again.
> this IS helpful muffled. but if you don't mind i'll tell.*thanks for your trust.
-your brother sounds like he was a sick sadistic bastard. I'm sorry you had to be affected by him :-(
Guess its gonna be some work to calm your 'people'. To let them feel safe. To deal with their anger. To deal with their hurt. :-(
But you got what it takes to do it B2. I know it. And while Teens intensity is WAY freaky, I think she most likely has your integrity too...
Take care,
M
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