Posted by B2chica on October 4, 2007, at 8:35:43
In reply to Re: more DD/DID stuff...session *possible trigger?, posted by muffled on October 3, 2007, at 11:36:14
> Then T was being SO nice to her and talking gently...which she needs So much....but then suddenly teen came out (which she's only been there once before and not very long). she is SO angry that everytime she 'appears' i (B2) become So exhausted physically. i don't know what it is but she wipes me out. but the good part is even though she got very angry, she stayed a while and talked to T.>>**Ya, nice T talking is SOOOOOOO cool! Mebbe teen was jealous?or mebbe teen was worried kid would say wrong things?
when IK is out and T was being really nice i think teen come out cuz when people are nice they want something, and teen trusts NO ONE. so she come to protect what might happen.
>>*leave in your head, or actually leave the room? And how do you use music? Sorry for all my questions...
she wanted to leave the room physically, then she just didn't want to be present anymore.
i sometimes use music to switch back to me. if i'm little one...soothing ethereal music, if i'm teen, hard but sometimes that encourages her...but i used lithium by evenescance (sp?) and that worked. i clenched hard and just became the music...that brought me back.
this also helps with the psychosis stuff i have going on.
its like a protection sometimes.>> i think that's how i must have switched back before, by injuring myself.
>>**As in SI? :-(yes...SI, i think that's why my SI kept getting more and more severe. that i switched my reason for SI, that i started to do it more when teen was coming out (not knowing what was happening)cuz she was one giant ball of rage. when she'd cut and bad, when done, then ME would step in because i needed to 'take care of' my wounds.
as a side note, i used to cut when i was younger too.>>*What my T has always told me, and I beleive this to be true, is that kids perceive things VERY VERY differently than adults. What an adult might consider silly, can be GINORMOUS to a child.
this IS helpful muffled. but if you don't mind i'll tell.
what she remembered was my brother found some rope (or whatever you call it) that my mother used for making macreme plant hangers. and what she remembered is it being wrapped several times around her wrist (maybe both but she was only looking at my right hand) and it was wrapped several times but brother was twisting it tight and moving it fast so that it was burning. i think he was somehow holding me down because she remembers feeling pressure and that she couldn't move. so the things she remembers mostly rather than an event is the tightness on wrist, the pain of burning and pressure or not being able to move.
sorry if triggering.
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