Posted by rskontos on September 30, 2007, at 18:08:27
In reply to Re: horrible things.. triggers and more » Dory, posted by twinleaf on September 30, 2007, at 14:22:50
Dory, are you my twin. I didn't think there was another person like this. I have been searching for someone. I thought I was a split person. I have done this too all my life. I don't know how to feel myself now. I can do exactly what you do, turn on for others to help them and then when I am alone I turn off. I am finding it harder and harder to do but then in a social setting I am bam back on. I will even say no I won't go there I will just be quiet me, but nope I am powerless. I am wondering if I am a split person. I know I dissaociate because of my childhood at least that is what my T said. Peopel think I like to talk alot, people think I am entertaining but that isn't me, that is the other person like you said the surface person. I understand exactly what you are saying because I do this. I don't want to anymore I want to well I don't know what I want to do. I can't even clean my house anymore. My T has dumped me I think. She hasn't called me back. I need to find a p-doc I think. I think I need meds. But just to talk finally to someone else I am glad I mean no I hate that you have experience this too because I know what you went through to get this way. I would erase that if I could but I do understand because everyday I go through it too unless I hide at home. Wow I am glad I came to this board via the meds board. Please post back so I know I didn't scare you but I am for real. rk
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