Posted by slugdoo on August 9, 2007, at 12:29:36
In reply to complex viewpoints., posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 9, 2007, at 8:27:13
I am very overwhelmed by all the support you all have given me in your words of wisdom and just your view points. I am really touched, you all could have ignored this especially issues like this one. I am still grieving my T , from not working with him anymore, the way he hurt me, and I know I will miss him dearly. I hope to have your wonderful support on those tough days. I put on my fillout sheet that T termination was something I wanted to work on in processing the anger and hurt I was feeling.
But you know what? Today I feel lighter! And not because I rejoined WeightWatchers again tody either. I feel like a huge "something" was lifted off from me and I feel good.
One of the things I asked my T about kinda coming out of the door, was why does it seem that T's lose their sensitivity after working in the profession so many years. And my T new said, yes he sees it happen with doctors, lawyers, and T's too. He said well he hasn't lost his even after 40plus years of practicing, he feels it is very important. And you know what it wasn't that my T wasn't sensitive, maybe a little detached, but my new T seems more genuinely caring. He seems to talk passionately and he sometimes closes his eyes when he is talking, but it almost seems like he wasn't just saying words but thinking deeply and speaking from the heart. It is hard to explain, it was weird at first, but I kinda like it.
He said another thing about a fellow psycholist who he has known for years, and he said he was like his soul mate friend. I kinda like that . Maybe he would understand what I feel for my T. My T doesn't belive in soul mates and wanted nothing to do with the conversation either. I know I have talked about this on here before, and that feeling that I have had from the first day I talked to him on the phone still is within me. So a year ago, I told my T that there will always be a part of him within me. It must be true because I still feel his presence. ;-)
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