Posted by OzLand on August 1, 2007, at 22:44:26
In reply to Just got off the phone with parents ***trigger***, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 1, 2007, at 18:54:39
I so want to say more than I am up to right now, but suffice it to say that he's not going to change, your father. Nor is he likely to ever admit to anything.
When my brother died last summer, I could not even go back to deal with his body; my poor husband had to do it plus clean out his apartment. I had him cremated which I am vehemnently opposed to as I have family on my paternal grandmother's side who were Jewish and gassed and put in the ovens in WWII. So this left me a lot of guilt. And then I guess to redeam myself, I took his ashes to Minnesota and spread them in the woods near where my grandparents lived. You would not believe the "meaning" of all this and what transpired on that same path when I was eight years old and then the aftermath. My therapist almost fell out of his chair, and it was then I realized how much significance there was to what I did all the way around. Oh crap. He wasn't my only abuser.
When my brother died, he was the last of my immediate family. I am now an orphan. Both of my parents died unnatural deaths and due to botched medical procedures. Enough.
I should just go rent one of my favorite Bergman films; my therapist wanted to know which was my favorite so he could watch it. So of course I did not tell him. My favorites are very "dark" ones.
OzLand
P.S. I will answer your question about therapy over the weekend. I haven't forgotten. Guess my brain is no longer fried!!
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