Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 30, 2007, at 13:36:39
In reply to Re: Lurpsie?? how are you? » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by Honore on July 30, 2007, at 10:32:46
>life situation not copacetic--
nope-- more acetic than coping.
>
> but let's not under-estimate massive drug overdose- massive drug withdrawal, - starting of new drugs-- and what a huge attack on body, mind all that is--
>
> necessarily leading to massive disruptions in the short term.
>yeah, but I think that if I had landed in the hospital they would have done worse to me. I pity the pdocs who see someone in crisis and have to decide on the fly what to do. Well, he has reviewed my history, and asked me very carefully what my experience on antidepressants was like. (cymbalta)
I think the approach here is agressive with getting me off the geodon. yes, pretty fast withdrawal/taper whatever.
And more gentle with adding the abilify (5mg) and zoloft (only 25 mg). He told me that he wanted to make it easier and more gentle on my system, and I appreciate that.
> In fact, I wonder if it might not be safer to go a little slower on the drug withdrawal? Is pdoc totally sure this great a shift is best long-term?
>IMO (and I hope in pdoc's opinion too) my main symptoms are mood swings and depression, tinged with some psychotic features, as they're so quaintly called. So, I guess the long term strategy for ME would be an antipsychotic, a mood stabilizer and an antidepressant. But wait! there's more! klonopin for anxiety, sonata for sleeping. those two are probably going to be essential for making it through the next 2-3 weeks.
> I still feel that maybe another pdoc might be wise. I'm not sure I'm feeling this pdoc, as they say.
>I don't think I have the oomph to find another pdoc. Even though my first appt.s with him weren't so positive, just kind of dry and clinical. I feel like he heard me at my 3rd appt. His staff is very friendly and was able to see me right away the next morning after I complained of intense suicidal thoughts.
I don't want to defend him, but I want to see what's going to happen with this cocktail. the proof is in the pudding, so to speak.
> I'm alarmed-- but I trust you Llurpsie. I feel that there's a lot of quiet or hidden strength that you have. Not limitless amounts to be sure-- but I really do trust you to stay alive. If there's ever any doubt about that-- you do have me and so many others right there for you, you know. Any time of day or night (I'm a nightowl.)
>Your confidence in me means so much. (saline excretions threatening to erupt. And your caring and smarts to share. I'm so glad to have people caring about me. I wish it weren't so hard to ask for help. I'm getting a little better at asking for help from husband, but recent events have made it harder. I'm not sure that he really needs to know WHY I need extra hugs, or someone to stay with me.
> Don't forget to take the klonopin, though-- if you feel things getting too weird. That (or a little bit of seroquel one day) should help quiet down an overly steep transition, I hope. They did (xanax and seroquel) for me.
I have to take 2 klonopins every day. That is my promise to myself. not optional, Llurpsie. part of my prescribed regimen. And food is not optional either. I'm trying to take my supplements too. I take fish oil and multivitamin and A&D&C&E extra. I know that this stuff is hard on my brain right now.
Honore, thank you for sharing your concerns. I know that a lot of people might have reservations, and be afraid to voice them. It's okay though.
And just so that this post doesn't get moved to the /meds/ board (yeah, right, like anyone ever redirects posts anymore!)
I have T tomorrow and I am happy to finally be able to see him 2x a week. It's been almost 2 months of only having T about every 2 weeks. That's really hard.
-Ll
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