Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 30, 2007, at 8:26:11
In reply to Lurpsie?? how are you?, posted by B2chica on July 30, 2007, at 8:10:45
I had an exhausting night. I didn't sleep very well at all. so restless with dreams that kept on going around and around in circles.
I have some recurrent dreams that are very ominous. Not anything like real-life stuff that pops up in nightmares, but just ominous.
I think I finally fell asleep about 2am.
I'm still exhausted, so screw that exercise class at 830, which I already missed.
I verbalized 2 goals this am. one was
brush teeth
the other was wash face.then I found a pair of jeans and a nice top to wear. the exciting thing is that this is a pair of jeans that I wore in COLLEGE. I lost almost 15 lbs this summer and it's finally paying off. Even if the rest of my body is going to hell, my metabolism is cooperating with the nutrisystem efforts.
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You all are wonderful people, with beautiful babble-faces. I feel this sense of fellowship to have so many people on this thread. And somewhat ashamed that I should be so alarming. Deneb's right- these feelings pass. And slugdoo said that maybe I did too much. She's right too. muffled, don't underestimate the power of leaving the hopsital option open. If you hadn't suggested it back in march, no telling what would have happened to me. And to joni and b2chica and Oz and phillipa. your suggestions and your support are much appreciated. I know that part of this is medication changes, but my former (((pdoc))) always pushed me really hard to consider the life situations and the psychological variables that contribute to bad feelings. That's a habit that I'm starting to appreciate. Because meds can only change every 2 weeks or so, but attitudes and behaviors can make the difference in the course of a day. I intend to make my day productive and calm.
I am trying my best to get my husband on board. he has been very sweet since our argument last week, and when I was really scared last night, he hugged me and reassured me that he would take care of me. when I felt utterly alone.
And there are those who babblemail me, and I want to thank them too.
The plan for this morning is to write a resume that makes it seem like I can work in a coffee shop. I will make it beautiful and articulate.
Now I'm back to oolong
take care of you, and please write me back if you get a chance. I'm lonely
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