Posted by 10derHeart on July 3, 2007, at 14:15:28
In reply to Re: I hate being angry with my T :-( » 10derHeart, posted by muffled on June 30, 2007, at 20:16:45
Well, I think there are plenty of good reasons we get mad, even if our rational minds say, 'no. huh? what?' Still, if we could just see through the fog (or our Ts could) every time, the emotion would make sense. But it's not that easy. I know how it sucks when we think our hints are STRONG and obvious - can't they just get it and answer appropriately? Nope, only sometimes in my case.
I am really mad. Because this is at least the 4th time I can recall, although by far the worst because of timing, and # of times. We talk about regularly how I hate his cell phone and how when he's forgotten it at home I was sooo happy. It doesn't always ring, but when it does, it's in his shirt pocket, and he HAS to look at the number. Probably 'cause only wife and son mostly use it, and I must say, many, many times he doesn't do anything, but even the looking and putting it away disturbs me and we have to sort of "reset" the session.
This time, it's the waiting between sessions to discuss it that hurts the most. I feel punished and ignored. Sent another email this morning - very short just pleading for a sentence or two to get me to Thursday when I can see him. I hate being reduced to begging. Normally I don't have to, but maybe he IS getting sick of my mini-meltdowns and is trying to teach me a lesson.
Don't know. While I wait, I imagine a lot of stuff, some could be true, but it's all awful (Termination for being too annoying). He knows silence = made up scenarios, but yet still I endure the silence. I sometimes hate the rules, boundaries, process so much....just TALK to me WHEN I need you, NOT on one hour of a week :-(well, I took the liberty to rant there, didn't I? Somehow I think you won't mind, muffled.
I've been trying to follow what's up with your T. - not sure if you're on a break you chose, or she's on vacation...? In either case, glad you're staying here with us....we all do sooooooo understand each other. ((muffled)))
ps - I should hire Poet to throw some stuff at him - starting with the phone itself...don't want to hurt him, but maybe she could just miss and it would break on the floor and then....ok I am nuts...
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